The answer to that question lies in the crisis that has inspired this blog. Two days ago I was fired from my job. Since 2004, I have been effectively fired from five jobs in row. I am 55 years old, I weigh 388 pounds, I have heart problems, high blood pressure, a herniated disc in my back, osteoarthritis, sleep apnea.... in short, I am a wreck. This job loss comes just as I am dealing with getting my father, who is suffering from Alzheimer's, into a nursing home. Emotionally I am in the depths of despair, and it seems like Time is my enemy. It is Time that is destroying my body. It is Time that is destroying a once-thriving career. It is Time that is constantly narrowing my options. There are times when I want to surrender my remaining portion of Time, and seek surcease in the bliss of oblivion.
But, I also hate Time. I do not want to see it overcome me. I want to be the Nemesis of Time, and battle it to the death. I want to go down fighting it, having given it a good tussle before I go. So, I start this blog to record my battle against the ravages of Time. I may be unemployed, but there is no reason for me to be unengaged. I want to claim again as much of what Time has taken from me as I am able to wrest from it with all of my might. I will be the Nemesis of Time.
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