Feeling so much better

10 pounds in 10 days and I feel great! Obviously, the size difference is not the reason. It is the focused activity and the healthier eating. Yay!

A Strong Week

What a difference a week can make! I have lost 8 pounds in eight days, which is right on target for the initial loss I intended. Instead of 388 lbs, I now weigh 380 lbs. My goal is to end this month at 375, then lose at least 15 lbs per month for the following five months. That would put me under 300 pounds in early March. Since my top weight ever was 407 lbs, even 297 would mean I had lost 110 lbs., and, of course, I would also be a lot stronger. I want to develop a system for success, and have my personal trainer certification by that time, as well. So, the goal is to write down what I am doing in a book that I can use with clients and others to help them succeed.

So, what have I been doing? Well, for one thing, I have been eating frequent, small meals. I have made 90% of my diet really good, healthy, homecooked food. And I have started a program of both cardio and resistance training. I am intent on using this time away from my normal routine to establish a priority to physical fitness. I will post more soon.

Why the "Nemesis of Time"?

The answer to that question lies in the crisis that has inspired this blog. Two days ago I was fired from my job. Since 2004, I have been effectively fired from five jobs in row. I am 55 years old, I weigh 388 pounds, I have heart problems, high blood pressure, a herniated disc in my back, osteoarthritis, sleep apnea.... in short, I am a wreck. This job loss comes just as I am dealing with getting my father, who is suffering from Alzheimer's, into a nursing home. Emotionally I am in the depths of despair, and it seems like Time is my enemy. It is Time that is destroying my body. It is Time that is destroying a once-thriving career. It is Time that is constantly narrowing my options. There are times when I want to surrender my remaining portion of Time, and seek surcease in the bliss of oblivion.

But, I also hate Time. I do not want to see it overcome me. I want to be the Nemesis of Time, and battle it to the death. I want to go down fighting it, having given it a good tussle before I go. So, I start this blog to record my battle against the ravages of Time. I may be unemployed, but there is no reason for me to be unengaged. I want to claim again as much of what Time has taken from me as I am able to wrest from it with all of my might. I will be the Nemesis of Time.